My mother gave this stuffed dog to my dad for some special occasion or another, and he fell immediately in love with it. With out hesitation, he named the dog "Rufus" and demanded to have his photograph taken with him. They looked good together, like two outlaws ready to rob a train and split the spoils. Or at least like two retired outlaws ready to curl up on a comfortable couch somewhere. They had the easy camaraderie of partners. Somehow, there was almost a sort of family resemblance. Rufus made Dad laugh, which was harder and harder to do back then as he struggled to accept his cancer diagnosis.
Dad got such a kick out of his photo shoot with Rufus, he decided to reenact it with Isabel, our yellow lab puppy. He showed up one day at the house giggling and obviously very pleased with himself, and took out a costume cowboy hat and bandana that he had purchased for this purpose. She obliged, and we got a photo that he referred to affectionately as the "Old Dog, New Dog" pic.
It also happened that Isabel and my father shared a birthday. They were a few days apart, but close enough to be birthday buddies, and I got the idea to throw them an Old Dog, New Dog birthday party. Isabel was turning one, and Dad was turning seventy-one. It seemed meant to be.
By the time my father's seventy-third birthday rolled around, the cancer had advanced considerably and he was in a lot of pain. He didn't want any fuss made over his birthday, and liked to joke with a wry humor that, "this birthday business is for the birds. In fact, after this one, I'm not going to have any more of them." Never-the-less, I cajoled him down to Yappy Hour, an off-leash puppy playtime at a local winery, and we had some chocolate cake while Isabel devoured a can of Alpo, turned upside down like a cake with a candle in it, candle and all.
Last year was the first time that his birthday came around, and he was no longer here to celebrate it, just as he'd predicted. Dave took the day off from work, and we drove upriver to the special site where we'd scattered some of his ashes. We took Isabel with us, and the kids. Timmy threw the chuck-it for Isabel, who ran and played happily. We gave her a can of Alpo, dutifully, with four candles in it. This time we managed to prevent her from consuming the candles along with the cake. It was, I believe, as he would have wanted it. The old dog may be gone, but the new dog still remembers.
He would have been seventy-five today. I decided, after some deliberation, not to reenact the ritual. This year, I didn't want his birthday to be a commemoration of his death. I wanted it to be a day of celebrating life--his life, my life, the gift of life itself. The old dog will never be gone. He is in everything we do--Emily's passion for books, Timmy's new found obsession with the Sound of Music, my efforts to play songs for the kids on the guitar he gave me, my mother-in-law's thoughts as she watches another season of his favorite t.v. program, Dancing with the Stars, Dave's consideration as he treats me with extra tenderness today...
Happy Birthday, Dad.
Dad got such a kick out of his photo shoot with Rufus, he decided to reenact it with Isabel, our yellow lab puppy. He showed up one day at the house giggling and obviously very pleased with himself, and took out a costume cowboy hat and bandana that he had purchased for this purpose. She obliged, and we got a photo that he referred to affectionately as the "Old Dog, New Dog" pic.
It also happened that Isabel and my father shared a birthday. They were a few days apart, but close enough to be birthday buddies, and I got the idea to throw them an Old Dog, New Dog birthday party. Isabel was turning one, and Dad was turning seventy-one. It seemed meant to be.
By the time my father's seventy-third birthday rolled around, the cancer had advanced considerably and he was in a lot of pain. He didn't want any fuss made over his birthday, and liked to joke with a wry humor that, "this birthday business is for the birds. In fact, after this one, I'm not going to have any more of them." Never-the-less, I cajoled him down to Yappy Hour, an off-leash puppy playtime at a local winery, and we had some chocolate cake while Isabel devoured a can of Alpo, turned upside down like a cake with a candle in it, candle and all.
Last year was the first time that his birthday came around, and he was no longer here to celebrate it, just as he'd predicted. Dave took the day off from work, and we drove upriver to the special site where we'd scattered some of his ashes. We took Isabel with us, and the kids. Timmy threw the chuck-it for Isabel, who ran and played happily. We gave her a can of Alpo, dutifully, with four candles in it. This time we managed to prevent her from consuming the candles along with the cake. It was, I believe, as he would have wanted it. The old dog may be gone, but the new dog still remembers.
He would have been seventy-five today. I decided, after some deliberation, not to reenact the ritual. This year, I didn't want his birthday to be a commemoration of his death. I wanted it to be a day of celebrating life--his life, my life, the gift of life itself. The old dog will never be gone. He is in everything we do--Emily's passion for books, Timmy's new found obsession with the Sound of Music, my efforts to play songs for the kids on the guitar he gave me, my mother-in-law's thoughts as she watches another season of his favorite t.v. program, Dancing with the Stars, Dave's consideration as he treats me with extra tenderness today...
Happy Birthday, Dad.
























































